Tell me how I can become a monk.
The elder replied:
If you want to have rest here in this life
and also in the next,
ask: Who am I?
And judge no one.
I was supposed to go to Chehalis for a Blessed Movements workshop. It's a 2-hour drive down. So Thursday and Friday, I emailed and phoned my contact and no answer and no reply. I was beginning to judge her. By midnight last night, I emailed her saying I am not coming to Chehalis if I didn't hear from her. By that time, I was hoping she's okay, and safe. That was the excuse I made up for her not replying to my emails and calls.
Then she called at 10 am today telling me no one registered. But that she left a voice message 4 days ago on my cell telling me the gig is off because of non-registration. I never check my messages. So there. If I judged her as 'incompetent' or something worst, then I'd have been disrespectful, unloving, toward her.
How about you? When has something like this happened to you and you assumed 'wrong' about the motive or the person? What will you remind yourself of next time your expectation is not being met?
How weighty to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
I try to count them—they are more than the sand;
I come to the end—I am still with you.